No pain no gain
pain also could mean bread...you get it
“All my haters become my waiters when I sit down at the table of success” - anyone else thinking about Eric Adams this past week? Is it just me repeating this inane phrase over and over again until it is beyond funny and then you’re like…..wait….was he cooking with this one????? He wasn’t, but this has been stuck in my head on loop all the same.
You ever uhhhhh, move, start a new job, graduate school, and try to live your life while it seems like everything is going real bad all around you and also everyone you know is in Europe or at the very least taking vacation of some kind??? I’m feeling more insane everyday so surely you can forgive me for having Eric fucking Adams stuck in my head. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for everyone and their Euro trips and whatnot, I am just doing a bit of (very mild) suffering and wanted to complain momentarily, so thanks for allowing that.
New job??? Why yes, I did get a new job thank you for noticing. As you know, I had spent the past year and a bit working at Moonmilk, making cake and ice cream and all that fun stuff. I really enjoyed it and loved all my bosses coworkers etc so when an opportunity came along for a new job in May, it was a tough call but I wanted to make the leap and try something new and totally different. So, since late May, I have been working at a bakery called Evelyn’s Crackers, which is a bakery that specializes in Ontario whole grain flours, which is super interesting and something I have never done before in any capacity. I am learning a whole lot but I am also feeling very humbled in ways that even school wasn’t capable of - it’s so different and there is so much to remember it’s hard not to doubt myself and feel like maybe I am not really that good of a baker, or that when I have been successful it was all a fluke.
Naturally I have been talking to my dear sweet genius friends about all of this, due to it taking up a lot of my mental capacity, and they have of course been very helpful and full of good advice. My friends Bernita and Chantal lovingly reprimanded me for calling myself dumb and bad - they were like, you are neither of those things and you need to stop WOMAN-ifesting it because in x amount of weeks/months etc, things will become easier and you will think back on this time in a much different way. And I know they are right, I sometimes like to use one of my yoga intentions when I feel this way: “I am calm, I am present”, because I simply cannot move forward if I am not one or ideally both of those things. I also spoke to Arun about this recently, and he reminded me that I am coming off a job I had for many many years where I didn’t have to try at all to be good at it, but I really hated it and now I am in a place where I like my job and I find it very interesting and fulfilling but I am still learning and growing and figuring out what I am good at and what I want (and need) to focus on. Also, I WANT to be a good and skilled baker and I didn’t really give a shit about being good at selling software, so the stakes feel different. Thank god for all of the geniuses in my life who don’t let me walk off the goddamn ledge, I would be lost without all of you.
Okay well that’s what’s been going on with me (other than sweating profusely in all this HEAT I suppose). Sorry I have been a bit MIA here, I have been thinking about ye olde stack and what I want to write about here - I still have a long thing in me about school and all that, and some other things that have been sitting in the back of my mind so I will try to have more of a schedule around posting. I was also thinking maybe I would make some videos??? I did a lil snack review reel the other day and people seemed to enjoy it so maybe in lieu of ever making a tik tok I will post lil food and snack review videos here. God, I would truly be the worst influencer on the planet. That’s fine though, we are pretty full up of influencers at the moment.
Ok, thank you for reading as always!! As a final thought, please enjoy this poster that was hung up at an office party themed party I was at recently:
